What’s eating me recently?
It’s been a while.
I’ve had many weird dreams, the weirdest would be the sea expidition trip where I had to go to this secret underwater place through, guess what, A SQUAT TOILET! And I remembered the guide warned us to lookout for EXIT 27 during the trip back cos we would be very miserable if we missed it.
I also dreamt that I had a big fight with my sister whom in reality, I am not really talking to her because there’re things she did and continue doing (that some might think is really petty) that makes me feel uncomfortable. It all started when she brought home a parasite and I dread to go back to the home I once missed a lot.
It may seem like the parasite is the cause for my misery but honestly I think I am my own misery. I thought about evil plans to make the parasite feel unwanted but I didn’t really carry out any except ignoring its existence.
Or I can try to give charity and allow shelter for the parasite though I don’t want to. It’s a lot easier if the parasite decided or have to crawl back to its nest far far away but life is never that expected.
I wanna make peace but I don’t wanna make peace. I think the conflict is with myself, not the parasite, not my sister, which is why I wanted badly but couldn’t share this with my best friend whom I shared almost everything.
It’s my birthday tomorrow. Can evil wish come true without penalty?
