I just need to complain
Happy Birthday to me.
It’s also time of the month and my mood has been and is still swinging and my tolerance limit has shrunk to nano scale.
There are a million things to complain and its all abt SUE. Generally, I’m OKAY with her except she says the weirdest opinion, or is haolian-est a closer description?
Things SUE dislikes or is against orb is irritated with:
1. Any websites in chinese language becos they are geli (www.sinchew.com.my geli meh?)
2. Pretty girls because they don’t have to work hard and guys will just help her out, credit to her pretty face. (I’m offended for a very obvious reason! LOL!)
SUE is:
1. A chinese
2. Female
Is it even possible to be racist towards your own race and sexist towards your own species? Yes it is. Who knows one day she might slant her eyes at chinese and tell women to stay home.
What’s eating me recently?
It’s been a while.
I’ve had many weird dreams, the weirdest would be the sea expidition trip where I had to go to this secret underwater place through, guess what, A SQUAT TOILET! And I remembered the guide warned us to lookout for EXIT 27 during the trip back cos we would be very miserable if we missed it.
I also dreamt that I had a big fight with my sister whom in reality, I am not really talking to her because there’re things she did and continue doing (that some might think is really petty) that makes me feel uncomfortable. It all started when she brought home a parasite and I dread to go back to the home I once missed a lot.
It may seem like the parasite is the cause for my misery but honestly I think I am my own misery. I thought about evil plans to make the parasite feel unwanted but I didn’t really carry out any except ignoring its existence.
Or I can try to give charity and allow shelter for the parasite though I don’t want to. It’s a lot easier if the parasite decided or have to crawl back to its nest far far away but life is never that expected.
I wanna make peace but I don’t wanna make peace. I think the conflict is with myself, not the parasite, not my sister, which is why I wanted badly but couldn’t share this with my best friend whom I shared almost everything.
It’s my birthday tomorrow. Can evil wish come true without penalty?
